when i was in elementary school i was in special ed for speech therapy (there were soooo many words i could not pronounce) and the r-slur was used against me a whole lot. i didn't know any better and thought they were right

but i was also fantastically literate, and in a completely different special ed, in a peer-tutoring capacity.

this came up in the context of reclaiming slurs and i did not express myself as well as i did here. i think people thought i was joking

specifically i think what people understood from my statement was "i can reclaim the R slur because i taught special ed"

which would understandably be such a horrifying thing for a teacher who works with children with learning disabilities to say

tldr: i was in special ed, and i was a tutor in special ed. this was not understood as sincere