if it means anything, i definitely don't think you're alone here. i like being able to use it to refer to myself, but it puts me on edge to read it in basically any context. i know that makes me a hypocrite

i feel like online queer spaces that become very f-slur friendly are maybe being more inclusive to a select audience, while also making the space more hostile for a way bigger audience. the end result being a feedback loop of people who think slurs are funny

i definitely don't think jstpst would be better by being friendly to using the f-slur