Yeah no worries. I’ll tell you when I get uncomfortable. I stayed for around 8 weeks (this was the max stay the psychiatrist allowed afterwards it’s squally diminishing returns to healing) also I had to heal from overdose and stuff. I had a job but I haven’t been attending for like 2-3 weeks at most?

I liked getting the privileges (they call it that). Not much of a writer but writing help me write letters (that I would never send) to people. Also spent most of it to draw stuff. Like the food. Painting was a lot more fun cause I held unofficial classes from people who wanted to learn to to paint specific things. When it got to stressful (people tend to crowd around and make noise while they watch), I stopped for a bit and moved to the girl’s room. But the girls I were kinda teaching left so it’s ok. I think I had reading first cause it was my priority. But I remember abandoning it cause 30 minutes + doctor supervision was too much. I used to be embarrassed about getting watched by someone but I had this weird fit of rebellion where I thought that if they’re giving me rules I might as well waste their time.

Permissions are granted depending on how ‘good’ you act. The nurses usually report on these. They can see if you’re social through CCTV or when they’re walking through the room. Group therapy is optional but if you join it you get a faster discharge apparently? I also remember asking my doctor if I can have this and she said, I’ll think about it but I’ll usually get it in like a week or so. Or sometimes if she think I’m not ready she’d just say so.

I wasn’t really excited to do anything except hug my cat. They do ask about future plans but I just gave like generic answers like exercise, travel, soul search because I honestly have no idea.