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I'm old, ugly, and weird.

Submitted by noordinaryspider in introductions (edited )

Hi, this is noordinaryspider from Raddle. noordinaryspider from IRC is a two headed four armed hydra and the fun part of them is my tween son who is growing up and becoming his own person and may or may not show up with his own username at some point.

I like cats, computers, guitars, writing personal letters and public forum posts, and meeting people who are honest about our differences and similarities.

I tend to get myself in trouble with predators so I should also mention that I am not into dating so just don't ask.

My pronouns are they/them/theirs.

Thank you for listening.

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musou wrote

nice, welcome to a cool website!

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noordinaryspider wrote

Thank you. I haven't had as much time to lurk yet as I probably should before posting something, but it looks like a great community and just what I need right now.

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hollyhoppet wrote

you don't need to lurk just post

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noordinaryspider wrote

Okay, but could you please just let me know what I do wrong? I don't understand. I want to be your friend.

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hollyhoppet admin wrote (edited )

I don't quite follow you. I was just trying to say you don't have to feel like you need to lurk before posting because one of the principles of this site is it's ok to post and you shouldn't have to worry about whether your post is "good enough." I don't think you did anything wrong particularly?

On top of that I'm just sometimes bad at trying to parse what people write and I'm having trouble with actually understanding the meaning behind your comment.

If you did post something upsetting one of us admins would delete the post and let you know.

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noordinaryspider wrote

Thank you because sometimes I just don't know. I'm not a troll and I need a safe community but I fuck up. I'm glad to know you have my back.

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voxpoplar wrote

I'm old, ugly, and weird.

same

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noordinaryspider wrote

I'm glad. They seem to have chased most of us off the internet awhile back so I tend to assume I am among 20-30somethings unless informed otherwise. I'm not 65 yet so still a baby when it comes to age and aging issues, but it sure has happened fast.

My body and mind used to feel indestructable. I used to want to be some sort of a badass superhero.

When did I become an easy mark and a professional victim?

I didn't even notice. It was like that frog in boiling water thing.

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voxpoplar wrote

I mean I'm not thirty yet so sorry if I gave a false impression. I kind of consider myself "online old" a lot and I've definitely started already feeling the pains of not having taking care of my body as well as I should. And thinking about transitioning and seeing that my hairline has already started to pull back makes me feel the grave pulling at me and making me fall apart. So I dunno I've just been feeling very old lately, even if I'm not really that old in reality.

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noordinaryspider wrote

No, you are a fellow elderly internet user, even though my oldest child is older than you. We are a minority and we stick together.

I have hair issues too and would love to share what we can come up with. Mine is just extremely thin all over because I'm AFAB and that's how the gene for male pattern baldness exhibits itself in this kind of body.

My body disintegrated so fast that I'm just not comfortable in my own skin and I don't recognize myself any more. I know it's hard, but self-care is important.

What are these kids going to do without us? I know they want to haul us both off to Treblinka, but it's not in their best interest.

I am not more equal than you. We're in this together. Thank you for having the courage to be "out" as a fellow Senior Digital Citizen.