Yea, I feel you. I'm not doing the direct action but my fantasies are getting.....well, scary.

I don't think it's possible to only do good consumption. Think "least bad". Also, what I'm trying when I freeze up and get overwhelmed with afk stuff is "next best thing" and/or "best next thing".

I can't make my family respect me and stop gaslighting me but I can water this african violet or wash my favourite plate.

hth.....I'm there too so talking to myself as well as you.

i am doing a whole lot too much internet and i need to stop with direct action

What do you mean? Have you considered entryism?