put my 2 weeks in at my food service job

ive been in food service for about ten years and i keep repeating the burnout cycle, start somewhere, try my best and work harder than im being paid for in order to get put on the schedule enough to survive on. disrespect from customers and management causes resentment to pile up and im less able to pretend that im here willingly.

the noise and crowds overstimulate me and make me miserable. its so hard maintain customer service cheeriness required of me. im autistic and depressed and I can't stand working somewhere for more than a few years and then spending months unemployed, trying to recover, burning through my savings. the thought of trying to access any sort of professional mental health resource seems like more than im capable of. ill never escape